Kona
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Before this starts, I wish to say that i hereby give up my position as Admin. I'm sorry everyone, but I can not properly administrate the servers and forums like this.
Alright, so most of you know that I don't like to talk about my personal life, but I need to say this. 7 years ago when I was about 10, I was diagnosed with depression. At first, it wasn't that bad, I just became sad at times and didn't know why. Fast forward about 5 years, and the depression starts to happen more frequently, and 2 years later, this year, I've started to have suicidal thoughts, and the depression is much more frequent. I'm now starting to believe the things I'm telling myself, such as being unwanted by many peoply I thought cared about me, and unloved by my own parents, I've never felt this unwated in my life, and this trip I've taken to Taiwan is actually making it worse. It's made me feel even more unwanted than the depression could have done on it's own, and the suicidal thoughts have gotten worse because of it.
When I first found the community about 2-3 years ago, it brought joy to me, even when I was feeling down. People were very nice to me when I first joined, and helped me out. The Admins were also very fun people, even if they were abusive. Now, I am no longer finding the amount of joy I've had in the past.
I'll still stay a part of the community, I have too many good memories here to let it go, but I, nor the community, will be the same
Thank you to everyone who has ever helped me during my time here, and thank you to the community for a good 2 years. I'm sorry I'm letting you guys down:
@Tricky you're my bestest friend here, and I am grateful for all the laughs we've shared and helping me through some tough times. You're a great guy, and I'm glad you're my friend
@SNC you've by far helped me the most in this community, helping me out a bit when I was new, teaching me when I was a new Admin, and even now helping me whenever I've made a mistake. I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you
@ApexPredator436 you may have started to hate me, but because of you, I started to see my faults, and I appreciate that
@Yuki you've given me the chance to be an Admin in this wonderful community, and I enjoyed helping out, but I'm sorry to let you down in resigning. I was hoping to get closer to you, since you seen like a fun person, but you have shown that you wanted to be left alone almost everytime I've talked to you, and I'm sorry for bothering you most of the time
For everyone I didn't mention, thank you for taking me into the community, and giving me a good time, and like I said before, I'm sorry I have to let you guys down.
Thank you guys for everything
Alright, so most of you know that I don't like to talk about my personal life, but I need to say this. 7 years ago when I was about 10, I was diagnosed with depression. At first, it wasn't that bad, I just became sad at times and didn't know why. Fast forward about 5 years, and the depression starts to happen more frequently, and 2 years later, this year, I've started to have suicidal thoughts, and the depression is much more frequent. I'm now starting to believe the things I'm telling myself, such as being unwanted by many peoply I thought cared about me, and unloved by my own parents, I've never felt this unwated in my life, and this trip I've taken to Taiwan is actually making it worse. It's made me feel even more unwanted than the depression could have done on it's own, and the suicidal thoughts have gotten worse because of it.
When I first found the community about 2-3 years ago, it brought joy to me, even when I was feeling down. People were very nice to me when I first joined, and helped me out. The Admins were also very fun people, even if they were abusive. Now, I am no longer finding the amount of joy I've had in the past.
I'll still stay a part of the community, I have too many good memories here to let it go, but I, nor the community, will be the same
Thank you to everyone who has ever helped me during my time here, and thank you to the community for a good 2 years. I'm sorry I'm letting you guys down:
@Tricky you're my bestest friend here, and I am grateful for all the laughs we've shared and helping me through some tough times. You're a great guy, and I'm glad you're my friend
@SNC you've by far helped me the most in this community, helping me out a bit when I was new, teaching me when I was a new Admin, and even now helping me whenever I've made a mistake. I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you
@ApexPredator436 you may have started to hate me, but because of you, I started to see my faults, and I appreciate that
@Yuki you've given me the chance to be an Admin in this wonderful community, and I enjoyed helping out, but I'm sorry to let you down in resigning. I was hoping to get closer to you, since you seen like a fun person, but you have shown that you wanted to be left alone almost everytime I've talked to you, and I'm sorry for bothering you most of the time
For everyone I didn't mention, thank you for taking me into the community, and giving me a good time, and like I said before, I'm sorry I have to let you guys down.
Thank you guys for everything
